Depression
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I'm just eh. I miss my domain so much and I guess I'm going to have to wait until June 1st when they re-set the bandwidth.
Other then that I'm going to the bank tomorrow afternoon after my aunt gets home from the store. She has to go down anyways to put money into one of her accounts so I'm going to go and open my checking account. I have a thing to get 150 free checks within 60 days of opening my savings account. Well it'll be 60 days on the 12th...so I'm going tomorrow which would be day 59. lol. So yeah! I get my checks free. lol. I'm going to put about $20 in the account though. Next Friday I'll have another $20 but I think I might put $10 of that in my savings. And right after I get the money from the yard sale I'm going to be going right to the bank and splitting it. Half will go in my checking half goes in my savings.
All day long I've been at my aunts. Ugh. I'm just...I can feel myself leading toward depression because of all the shit she's signed me up for and me not know about.
I mean I can't even talk to her about Ryan & myself. It's like she doesn't want to hear it. I don't know if that's just me feeling that way or if that's really how she feels. It kind of hurts me.
I just feel so pressured and backed against the wall. I just want to withdrawl from everything and everyone and stay in the dark. Ryan knows that's how I get when I get depressed and after that last time it happened (before we started dating) he said he wouldn't let that happen again. And I know he'll atlest be the one person there for me if no one else is.
Lately though when he gets off work and comes down all he does is work here. And I keep thinking to myself he comes here to hang out and relax, not work. That's just me though. I don't know what's going on inside my head anymore.
This is such a depressing blog...lol...sorry for making it that way.
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4 comments:
Man, it sucks that you need to get the bandwidth all reset for your domain. I was like, Oh no, where's the site!?! when I first saw it was down. June is almost here though... half a month left.
Day 59... nice. Way to procrastinate! Hahaha. Yeah, I'd probably have wound up doing the same thing, too.
Don't let yourself get too worked up about everything that's going on in your life. I know sometimes it can be pretty much inevitable, but don't lose sight of rationality. Believe me, I've had multiple periods of depression throughout my life, and like you, I know when it's coming. It sucks. And it can be scary. But remember you have people who care about you. And as much as you want to just block out everything and everyone, it is better just to let the people who love you know how you feel. They care about you and don't want you feeling this way. Stay strong. I'm sure everything will be okay; you just have to remember that there is always a bright side.
Don't be depressed! Kelly's back!!! But seriously, just relax and try to take a day for yourself. Sorry I haven't commented in so long! Tropical Splash is finally all pretty again. And that dog picture is ADORABLE!
Finally here to comment. Awww. I miss going to your stupid-eyed too lol.
Yeah! Savings! I should start saving too instead of spending. lol. What stuff did she sighed you up for? Sigh im not even close to my aunt that i go to her house for stuff and talk to her about my bf and i. Maybe you should try to talk to her?
Aye sometimes it's like that. Relationships. Not that i'm such a big expert but sometimes girls think alot alot more than the guys. Matters which are not big to them may be big to us and etc.. i feel that way too. =(~
awww shucks hun. hope things get better for u. :D im glad that ryan understands you, thats all that really matters. hope things get sorted out for you. :D
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