I now know the depths I reach are limitless

So the last three shots are just snaphots but still. lol.

Friday night we went to see 28 Weeks Later and it's well worth the watch. Ryan says it's the best film we've seen all year. I kind of agree, but Ghost Rider is a little above it.

Other then that it was just a great weekend. Rented games and movies.

I did buy hair dye and I'm not saying waht color because I want it to be a surprise when I get it done. My mom said she might do it in the morning so I don't know.

I am feeling a lot better then I was Thursday. I think the weekend helped with it. No depression in sight as of now. And I hope to keep it at bay for as long as I can.

And because of everything going on I've set my mind that I'm going to be trying my best to take my driving test before my learners permit runs out in August. I'm going to talk to my mom about it tomorrow morning. Because right now I'm at a point where I'm ready to move out, I'm ready to move on. When I take my driving test, I'll let yall know how it goes...and when I get ready to move out I'll let yall know where I'm going to be living.

Well I'm going to go so I can watch Death Of A President


Peace Out & Keep Things Bitchin'!

Depression

TV: Are You Smarter Than A 5hth Grader
Plugs: NONE

I'm just eh. I miss my domain so much and I guess I'm going to have to wait until June 1st when they re-set the bandwidth.

Other then that I'm going to the bank tomorrow afternoon after my aunt gets home from the store. She has to go down anyways to put money into one of her accounts so I'm going to go and open my checking account. I have a thing to get 150 free checks within 60 days of opening my savings account. Well it'll be 60 days on the 12th...so I'm going tomorrow which would be day 59. lol. So yeah! I get my checks free. lol. I'm going to put about $20 in the account though. Next Friday I'll have another $20 but I think I might put $10 of that in my savings. And right after I get the money from the yard sale I'm going to be going right to the bank and splitting it. Half will go in my checking half goes in my savings.

All day long I've been at my aunts. Ugh. I'm just...I can feel myself leading toward depression because of all the shit she's signed me up for and me not know about.

I mean I can't even talk to her about Ryan & myself. It's like she doesn't want to hear it. I don't know if that's just me feeling that way or if that's really how she feels. It kind of hurts me.

I just feel so pressured and backed against the wall. I just want to withdrawl from everything and everyone and stay in the dark. Ryan knows that's how I get when I get depressed and after that last time it happened (before we started dating) he said he wouldn't let that happen again. And I know he'll atlest be the one person there for me if no one else is.

Lately though when he gets off work and comes down all he does is work here. And I keep thinking to myself he comes here to hang out and relax, not work. That's just me though. I don't know what's going on inside my head anymore.

This is such a depressing blog...lol...sorry for making it that way.