I'm just eh right now. I'm working really hard on getting the domain back up and running without having to wait until the 1st. I should be getting the conformation to go ahead and pay for the 1 gig of bandwidth here shortly and as soon as I do I'll be sending the check out so figure by the end of next week I'll be back at my domain! Thank god!

Tomorrow I'm going to go watch my aunts dog, ony because I have a bill to pay and I'm going to write the check out and send it in the mail tomorrow morning so I'll have to go to the bank tomorrow before Ryan & I do whatever.

I've been working on making another bag all day today. I'm making a bag and I cut a Pink Floyd 1987 concert t-shirt up to put on it and I think it's going to look really cute once it's finished. My goal was to get it finished by tomorrow but that's not going to happen because I had taken time to paint on those two cats.

I'm so happy that it's finally the weekend. This week was just ugh. Not much fun at all.

Well I'm going to head off here and try to sleep tonight.

Opps I didn't clean.

TV: America's Next Top Model

Today I worked on cleaning up my room. Hmm...I didn't get it done though. lol. Mainly because I stopped to do something else.

See my mom got me these two cats a few months ago. When she got them they were white but she thought they looked like my cat Cope. So I started to repaint those today. I have like all their hair painted I just have to do the eyes and stuff like that. I think I just might get those finished tomorrow.

I still need to finish my room.

I started drawing something else too.

I'm shopping for a cell phone too. I'm going to use Cingular though because my friend in Mississippi has that and I could call her and it not charge both of us. So that's the main reason for looking at that. And I think I got Ryan talked into whenever he gets his cell to get the same thing.

Tonight Ryan kept asking me if I was mad a him and I told him no. Well he was fishing for info on why I've been acting funny and staying home all week. I think he now realizes what's going on and why I'm staying home.

He told me to figure out what we're doing this weekend. I think we're renting a video game..and it's suppose to be like yucky outside all weekend. So I don't know. More then likely we'll end up just staying home and chilling out because I don't have any cash to do much this weekend. I have a bill to pay.

I'm not far from bed really.

Snake W-O-M-A-N

TV: House

Snake Woman
Drawing finished: May 15, 2007

This is the drawing I've been working on to send Anna. Just in return for sending me the Trent Reznor poster. (Which I'm STILL in love with) I can just say that I love how the snake turned out. Everything else is just kinda...eh. lol. I just haven't really sat down and drew anything in a while and I'm just kinda getting back in the swing of things. There's a chance that I'll draw something Ash (Evil Dead) related tomorrow.

Tomorrow I'm just going to stay home. Mainly because I need to clean my room so bad. It's not even funny. So I just thought I'll take tomorrow to do it because it needs done. So unless Ryan comes to my place tomorrow I won't see him. He did say tonight that he'd call if he didn't see me tomorrow. I kind of hope that he comes and sees me tomorrow though.

Well a short blog but House is on!

It's so close I can taste it!

TV: Full House

Purple Flower (2 Pictures)Date Taken: May 14, 2007 Place Taken: In front of the house

Pink Buds (3 Pictures)Date Taken: May 14, 2007 Place Taken: My Aunts Yard




Little Light Purple Flowers (2 Pictures)
Date Taken: May 14, 2007 Place Taken: My Aunts Yard



White Bells (4 Pictures)Date Taken: May 14, 2007 Place Taken: My Aunts Yard





Blue Bird (2 Pictures)Date Taken: May 14, 2007 Place Taken: My Aunts Yard



Dogwood Flower (2 Pictures)Date Taken: May 14, 2007 Place Taken: My Aunts



Puppy Eating (1 Picture)Date Taken: May 14, 2007 Place Taken: Kitchen

Puppy is a lazy dog. What more can I say. He lays down in front of his dish to eat. lol.
I did get my mom to dye my hair today. It didn't turn out right. It all just looks black now. :( Oh well. I guess I'll just live with it that way for now.

Most of the day though I just hung out at home because I didn't want to go do anything. Is that wrong? Aound 1ish I finally went outside. I took a couple pictues then figured thatI should go over to my aunts.

Vacation is so close, I can taste it! June 16th is coming so close and I can't wait. I think we're leaving at about 6am. But Ryan gets to stay here with me! I can't wait for that. Then where Ryan works they get two weeks off, the first two weeks of July. Well Ryan is going to try to work one of those weeks so he'll have a week of vacation that he can take whenever...but it looks like he's not going to be able to work one week. But anyways the first two weeks in July I'll basiclly move in with Ryan. I can't wait for that either! :) It's just 2 lazy weeks for both of us and it's just so well worth it. 2 weeks waking up beside Ryan...aye.

I'm thinking about going and getting a bath real quick.

I now know the depths I reach are limitless

So the last three shots are just snaphots but still. lol.

Friday night we went to see 28 Weeks Later and it's well worth the watch. Ryan says it's the best film we've seen all year. I kind of agree, but Ghost Rider is a little above it.

Other then that it was just a great weekend. Rented games and movies.

I did buy hair dye and I'm not saying waht color because I want it to be a surprise when I get it done. My mom said she might do it in the morning so I don't know.

I am feeling a lot better then I was Thursday. I think the weekend helped with it. No depression in sight as of now. And I hope to keep it at bay for as long as I can.

And because of everything going on I've set my mind that I'm going to be trying my best to take my driving test before my learners permit runs out in August. I'm going to talk to my mom about it tomorrow morning. Because right now I'm at a point where I'm ready to move out, I'm ready to move on. When I take my driving test, I'll let yall know how it goes...and when I get ready to move out I'll let yall know where I'm going to be living.

Well I'm going to go so I can watch Death Of A President


Peace Out & Keep Things Bitchin'!

Depression

TV: Are You Smarter Than A 5hth Grader
Plugs: NONE

I'm just eh. I miss my domain so much and I guess I'm going to have to wait until June 1st when they re-set the bandwidth.

Other then that I'm going to the bank tomorrow afternoon after my aunt gets home from the store. She has to go down anyways to put money into one of her accounts so I'm going to go and open my checking account. I have a thing to get 150 free checks within 60 days of opening my savings account. Well it'll be 60 days on the 12th...so I'm going tomorrow which would be day 59. lol. So yeah! I get my checks free. lol. I'm going to put about $20 in the account though. Next Friday I'll have another $20 but I think I might put $10 of that in my savings. And right after I get the money from the yard sale I'm going to be going right to the bank and splitting it. Half will go in my checking half goes in my savings.

All day long I've been at my aunts. Ugh. I'm just...I can feel myself leading toward depression because of all the shit she's signed me up for and me not know about.

I mean I can't even talk to her about Ryan & myself. It's like she doesn't want to hear it. I don't know if that's just me feeling that way or if that's really how she feels. It kind of hurts me.

I just feel so pressured and backed against the wall. I just want to withdrawl from everything and everyone and stay in the dark. Ryan knows that's how I get when I get depressed and after that last time it happened (before we started dating) he said he wouldn't let that happen again. And I know he'll atlest be the one person there for me if no one else is.

Lately though when he gets off work and comes down all he does is work here. And I keep thinking to myself he comes here to hang out and relax, not work. That's just me though. I don't know what's going on inside my head anymore.

This is such a depressing blog...lol...sorry for making it that way.

Puppy, Fuzzy & Goat pictures...and a siezure.

Here's some pictures from the 8th.




This is Puppy. Well he's really not a puppy anymore. He's about 2 years old and we've had him for about a year or a little over. He was a stray that would come to our house and eat the cat food. Then we finally got to let him inside for a little bit during the day when it was winter. At that time when he first started coming around we had Goofy so he'd play with Goofy.


These are pictures of my goat.










And here's Fuzzy.












When I was posting my blog on MySpace, Puppy had a siezure. That's like the 3rd one he's ever had. I just can't deal with that anymore though. Usually I'm the only one around him when he starts with them so I have to yell to get people to get off their ass to even ask me what's going on. But this time he came out of the kitchen (I was in the living room) trying to walk like but it was hard for him and he ended up inf ront of the sofa and when I was yelling for my mom Puppy heard her coming from the hall and went over to the hall. My mom had to hang up the phone (she was talking to my aunt) and told Frank (My brother) to get a cold wash cloth from the bathroom. I guess the wash cloth helped though because not even like 5 minutes after Puppy had stopped with it my grandpa came in the door and Puppy was up barking at him and everything.


Today was that stupid auction. Waste of time really. It was basiclly in the sun all day and there was no where to sit or even put chairs. I left at 8:30am and didn't get to my aunts until 4pm....and I didn't get home until like 7:30pm. It just sucked so much. And tomorrow I guess I don't have a life because I have to help my aunt go through all the stuff. It'll take a couple days I guess and well I'm not giving up my weekend because that's the only time Ryan & I get to really be like a couple.