Depression

TV: Are You Smarter Than A 5hth Grader
Plugs: NONE

I'm just eh. I miss my domain so much and I guess I'm going to have to wait until June 1st when they re-set the bandwidth.

Other then that I'm going to the bank tomorrow afternoon after my aunt gets home from the store. She has to go down anyways to put money into one of her accounts so I'm going to go and open my checking account. I have a thing to get 150 free checks within 60 days of opening my savings account. Well it'll be 60 days on the 12th...so I'm going tomorrow which would be day 59. lol. So yeah! I get my checks free. lol. I'm going to put about $20 in the account though. Next Friday I'll have another $20 but I think I might put $10 of that in my savings. And right after I get the money from the yard sale I'm going to be going right to the bank and splitting it. Half will go in my checking half goes in my savings.

All day long I've been at my aunts. Ugh. I'm just...I can feel myself leading toward depression because of all the shit she's signed me up for and me not know about.

I mean I can't even talk to her about Ryan & myself. It's like she doesn't want to hear it. I don't know if that's just me feeling that way or if that's really how she feels. It kind of hurts me.

I just feel so pressured and backed against the wall. I just want to withdrawl from everything and everyone and stay in the dark. Ryan knows that's how I get when I get depressed and after that last time it happened (before we started dating) he said he wouldn't let that happen again. And I know he'll atlest be the one person there for me if no one else is.

Lately though when he gets off work and comes down all he does is work here. And I keep thinking to myself he comes here to hang out and relax, not work. That's just me though. I don't know what's going on inside my head anymore.

This is such a depressing blog...lol...sorry for making it that way.

Puppy, Fuzzy & Goat pictures...and a siezure.

Here's some pictures from the 8th.




This is Puppy. Well he's really not a puppy anymore. He's about 2 years old and we've had him for about a year or a little over. He was a stray that would come to our house and eat the cat food. Then we finally got to let him inside for a little bit during the day when it was winter. At that time when he first started coming around we had Goofy so he'd play with Goofy.


These are pictures of my goat.










And here's Fuzzy.












When I was posting my blog on MySpace, Puppy had a siezure. That's like the 3rd one he's ever had. I just can't deal with that anymore though. Usually I'm the only one around him when he starts with them so I have to yell to get people to get off their ass to even ask me what's going on. But this time he came out of the kitchen (I was in the living room) trying to walk like but it was hard for him and he ended up inf ront of the sofa and when I was yelling for my mom Puppy heard her coming from the hall and went over to the hall. My mom had to hang up the phone (she was talking to my aunt) and told Frank (My brother) to get a cold wash cloth from the bathroom. I guess the wash cloth helped though because not even like 5 minutes after Puppy had stopped with it my grandpa came in the door and Puppy was up barking at him and everything.


Today was that stupid auction. Waste of time really. It was basiclly in the sun all day and there was no where to sit or even put chairs. I left at 8:30am and didn't get to my aunts until 4pm....and I didn't get home until like 7:30pm. It just sucked so much. And tomorrow I guess I don't have a life because I have to help my aunt go through all the stuff. It'll take a couple days I guess and well I'm not giving up my weekend because that's the only time Ryan & I get to really be like a couple.

I got mail...and a bill.

TV: House
Plugs: Grace ; Briana

Today I got mail! I got a poster in the mail that Anna sent me. And I LOVE it! Thanks again Anna. :)

Other then that I just tried to relax today because I know I won't get a chance tomorrow.

Tomorrow is another auction that I really don't want to go to but I have to. I'm going to take my MP3 Player like I usually do, but this time I'm taking my drawing pad. I think it'll give me something different to do. Because since Anna sent me the poster I'm drawing her something to send her in return. :) So it'll give me major time to work on it. And my mom told me tonight that if she gave me the money she'd pay for some box lots (which is like say 5 boxes for one price, usually we get them for $1.00) and once we brought the stuff home we'd split it to put it in the yard sale.

This yard sale is paying for my vacation when it comes down to it. Which isn't a bad thing because I have a few things made to put in and I still have to go through my closet a 2nd time. I figure I can make some cash from it. And after I pay what I have to I won't be sending money on anything really.

I did get the bill for my BMG Music club. It's due the 28th and I'm going to write the check out on the 18th and send it out so they'll get it within the time limit.

This Friday after my aunt gets home she's going down to the bank and I'm going to run down with her and open a savings account. I have a thing where I get 150 free checks. Which really isn't a bad thing. But figure I'll have at lest $20 to put in the account and next Friday I'll have the $20 for the BMG Music thing. And I'll get my Debit card by the end week of June.

I'm really thinking about just debiting everything on my trip, and taking out only the money I'll be using at the track. It'd just be a lot less for me to keep track of really.

Well I'm going to get off here so I can get a shower and draw a little bit before I have to get in bed.

Some pictures...and I'm sorry.

Sorry for giving everyone the wrong link. I'm used to being at Stupid-Eyed.Net. Sorry!


Here are some pictures that I haven't been able to post yet...

This is a picture from a little girl that was at the auction Friday. She was sitting on a stool and kept falling asleep. lol.















Today I spent most of my time at my aunts...not much fun really. Tomorrow I'm just going to sleep all day because I didn't sleep like at all last night and so I'm just dead tired right now.


I'm going to set up my checking account, finally. My aunt is going to take me Friday after she gets home from the store. So I'll have money to put into the account because I'll end up watching her stupid dog. And once I get my card and checks and everything i'll be more then likely doing everything on line. I'll be changing my domain payment do that it just comes out at the end of every month, same goes for my BMG Music account. I just can't wait because it's just going to be so much easier for me when it comes down to it.


Well I'm going to go play on myspace for a little while.

Temp Blog Site

Okay yes I know this is not Stupid-Eyed.Net. But see for some reason, I know the reason, I ran out of bandwidth so yeah. The site is down until I get everything figured out for it. I am not pleased or happy at all during this point of time. It just really sucks. I'm hoping to get everything running again by the end of the week, hopefully sooner then that.

After this is all over with I will not be hosting anyone.

I just feel really bad about all this though. So please don't change your URLs to my links because I'm not gone. Stupid-Eyed.Net is sitll there, and it will be back. I just got screwed over at this point in time.

Other then all this high school type drama....everything went good this weekend.

Friday night we just messed around at the mall for a bit. And I found Man With The Screaming Brain! It was only $10 too! So yeah I bought it. After we were done at the mall we went over to Hollywood Video to rent some movies and rent a video game. Well we rented the video game Bully, but when we got it home it wouldn't play so yeah. we took it back and rented Sims 2 for Playstation 2...I had fun with that. I think Ryan liked watching more then anything else though.

Saturday night we went to see Ghost Rider for the 2nd time. I think it was better the 2nd time. lol. Or maybe that's just me. I just love that film so much. But we walked down to the theater from Ryan's house. It didn't take as long as we thought it would. Well anyways we were basiclly there and this car horn is going off. Well I look and there's two gus giving us the finger. No worries...Ryan knows them. lol. And I know the one. lol.

Overall the weekend was great and worth it all. Well yeah it isn't worth not having a site though.
But like I said I'm working on getting it all fixed so I have somewhere better to blog. And once it's all back, no hosting at all. Sorry I have to be like that, but I've learned I can't trust people really like I thought I could.

Sorry for this mostly being a rant.